employment

I didn't go for the librarian job. walked into the job service center almost completely unprepared- compared to the others that were in there doing the same thing. So I chickened out. I didn't feel right about it, and when that happens, the very core of my being starts to shake until I just have to get the hell out of wherever I am.
I really don't call that chickening out too often. It's usually good sense. I was vibrating like a plucked harpstring until I reached Colby, Kansas, the night I left. Okay, so it was being a chicken. But I could leave, so I did.

Anyway. my folks's prayers were answered, in a way. The day of the deadline, things were slow at the furniture store, so I didn't have to work, which opened up my entire day. the opportunity was there to take, I just chose not to. (But I thanked God for giving me the choice). I just don't feel comfortable enough yet to try my hand at being a snarky librarian again. At least on this island, I know it'll come open again eventually.

So, God opened up another window. I start training at CostSavers on Wednesday morning. I'm not ready to give up either of my other jobs yet, so I let M. know (Of course, by tomorrow, I might be ready to shove the job.) that I still want to work for her...I just don't know the scheduling details yet. R. told me to tell A. that I could work anywhere, and R. would work around him. He reminded me that my job was basically there to give him a day off...and since he is a workaholic, my times could be moved around.

Costsavers could be full time, yet let me out of the shop by 8 p.m, if I closed, and I could sleep in 'til 7:30 even if I open. And I'd get a real lunch break again.

Actually, cross your fingers again and pray that this is going to be something worthwhile. I'm going to try and put in a 13 hour day tomorrow (which WON'T last for long if this is the right deal. )

Eventually, I'm gonna have to go back to one job. I just want to be the one to make that choice, not the employers.