ennui

Ennui:
A feeling of weariness and dissatisfaction; dullness and languor of spirits, arising from lack of interest; boredom.

Yeah, that's kinda it. I wanna post again on the 'funk, but I just can't seem to give a damn right now. I burned out of posting the other night, after emailing my mother. I wrote to her like I'd write in a journal, changing colors with every different subject I could think of, and being brutally honest about my feelings up here.

And she liked it! I figured that she would, but it still flips me out that she doesn't start preaching at me (too much) when I mention sex. I think she was biting her tongue when I mentioned about the woman teaching me to knit. She likes to adopt everybody, and I get uncomfortable at those types if people.
It's my father in me, I guess.

The knitter has some very-- peculiar--ideas about the love life of her son. She says the when he turns thirty, she'll let him read the Song of Solomon, and then she'll bring home the girl he should marry. She's basing it on the Hebraic way of things. The upside of this is that he doesn't get the "what about this one? She's nice" nitpicking that most guys get. At least for the next three years. It takes a lot of pressure off...but thirty?